ExpandingHorizon

RINDA,
WHATEVER IN YOUR MIND NOW, JUST BELIEVE THAT YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. NO MATTER
WHAT YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH, NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE IN YOUR LIFE,
NO MATTER WHAT YOU WORRY RIGHT NOW, NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL, WHAT U FEEL ABOUT
YOURSELF NOW, NO MATTER HOW BAD YOUR SITUATION RIGHT NOW, YOU DESERVE TO BE
HAPPY, GAL. YOU HAVE WITH COURAGE GONE THROUGH WHOPPERS AND THERE IS NOTHING ON
EARTH HAS THE RIGHT TO ROB THE HAPPINESS FROM YOU, GOD WONT GIVE UNHAPPINESS TO
YOU, WHAT GOD PRESENTS YOU ARE ONLY GIFTS THAT ARE SOMETIMES DISGUISED IN THINGS THAT ACCORDING TO YOUR
SHORT THINKING AS MISFORTUNE, BUT WHEN YOU LOOK THEM VERY CLOSELY, YOU WILL
FIND THAT THEY ARE THE TREASURE OF YOUR LIFE BECAUSE YOU LEARN FROM THEM, THEY
TAUGHT YOU TO BE TOUGH, TO BEHAVE VERY WISE, TO LEARN THOSE ON EARTH THAT NEED
TO BE LEARNED. WHEN YOU REALIZE THE DISGUISES, YOU CAN DO NOTHING BUT SMILING
AND BEING GRATEFUL THAT YOU CAN FINALLY PASS THE DISGUISED MISFORTUNES, THAT
THOSE MAKE YOU TOUGH AND OPTIMISTIC ABOUT THE FUTURE. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY GAL.
NONE HAS THE RIGHT TO ROB HAPPINESS FROM YOU. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY, NONE HAS THE RIGHT TO TAKE AWAY YOUR HAPPINESS,
NONE CAN.

The definition of me as a complete
being:

I am not going to
let people to define who I am. I am responsible of what I do thus I am the one
who define who I am. I am not going to let people’s idea of me to take control
of me to define who I am. I am not what people think coz they don’t know about
me as much as I know about myself and not as much as God knows about me.

I am very happy to
be who I am and I am proud to be who I am. Though I am weak at some points, I
have strengths in some points. Though I am not perfect I am tough, smart and
grounded. I am not going to look for approval from people in the essence of me
since this is my soul and none has the right to control over my soul but God
only. I submit to God alone, so I am not going to let people to tell me what to
do especially when it transgresses God’s law.

I love me and I accept the way I am. Physically I have
flaws and it’s hard sometimes to make peace with this physical being, yet I
love the way I look and I accept who I am. I understand that I am given different
setting of place, time, and condition (social and cultural), and I accept this
situation (I am still dealing with this, it’s hard to deal but the first thing
to do to deal with it is to accept the situation I am in.)

Dear miss insecure,

Be secure since you have all
you need to be.

The life that I have has
been a very challenging one and I am not sure if I still have the strength to
carry on, but the fire inside me tells me not to quit.

Dear miss envy,

You have been claiming
that you have different settings and characters to meet with your friends, so
it’s such an odd story when your story is the same with others’. Seriously, are
you envious for all that she gets and experiences? If you live in such envies,
when are you going to move forward? The issue that you have is in your hand and
of course God’s. And it’s up to God and you how to handle this kind of issue.
Will not you be appreciative for everything that happens to you coz the bad
things are there to teach you and test you and the good things are there to
teach and test you. I don’t understand why you still care of thinking others’
stories but not narrate your story to be the best story you can narrate. It’s
no matter whether your story is going to be the best story or not, the thing
that really matters is that you narrate your story with given setting and
characters the best way you can. Knowing that you can be the best narrator of
your own story will strengthen you.

Dear miss
lonely,

I know that
you feel that you are alone in this world coz people seem not to understand,
but I assure you that it’s only what you think. People do care about you. I
know that you feel desperate thinking of your dreams but surely you can make them
come true. Don’t despair on God’s mercy. You just don’t understand His
wonderful blessings that you despair. Are you going to conform to those who
define happiness as having money, having boyfriend, having fancy cars, having
the biggest diamond on earth, having lotsa people who adore her/him? Isn’t it
time to define your own happiness? Why
do you have to agree or approve to what others think happiness is, define your
own happiness and don’t transgress the Final Testament and you know that you
will be alright.

I recently took a personality test and i found out that i am an INFP. This term is new for me and i was quite surprised on how accurate the result was and i can be honest that i really like it. it’s like that there are words that can explain to me what happen in me, the things that i cannot explain before. it’s like a new adventure to know me better and i know that this test is just the beginning of knowing who i really am.
Here are some of the explanation of what INFP personality is:

"INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life.
They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning
underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained
gets sifted through the INFP’s value system, and is evaluated to see if
it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path
in life."(from personalitypage.com)

""Highly creative, artistic and spiritual, they can produce wonderful works of art, music and literature. INFPs are natural artists.
They will find great satisfaction if they encourage and develop their
artistic abilities. That doesn’t mean that an INFP has to be a famous
writer or painter in order to be content. Simply the act of "creating"
will be a fulfilling source of renewal and refreshment to the INFP. An
INFP should allow himself or herself some artistic outlet, because it
will add enrichment and positive energy to their life." (from personalitypage.com)

You Are Someone Who:

Enjoys the arts, philosophy, and psychology

Needs to have a crusade (or mission) in life.

Is sensitive.

Is idealistic.

Is generally easy-going until your values are violated.

Tends to have high expectations regarding your loved one.

I hope you all who read this can see a glimpse of me as i do.

Letting
Go

To Let go does not mean to stop caring…
…it means I can’t do it for someone else.
To Let go is not to cut myself off…
...it is the
realization I can’t control another.
To Let go is not to enable…
…but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To Let go is to admit powerlessness…
…which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To Let go is not to try to change or blame another…
…it’s to make the most of myself.
To Let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To Let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To Let go is not to judge…
…but to allow another to be a human being.
To Let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the
outcomes…
…but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To Let go is not to be protective…
…it’s to permit another to face reality.
To Let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To Let go is not to nag, scold, or argue…
…but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct
them.
To Let go is not to adjust everything to my desires…
…but to take each day as it comes, and cherish myself in it.
To Let go is not to criticize and regulate anybody…
…but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To Let go is not to regret the past…
…but to grow and live for the future.
To Let go is to fear less, and love more.
~Author Unknown

She
was there by herself, believing that everything would be okay. She placed her
eyes tightly to the blue sky. She didn’t notice how many hours she had spent
leaning her back to an old chair just to see what happened up there in the sky.
The clear blue sky had gone, a rather dark blue with its millions of what so
called lamps of the night had replaced the cheerful blue sky. She kept on believing
that everything would be okay though the sky had turned dark. She had had
millions of dark nights before. Sometimes storms accompanied it, but she still
could stay where she was. She had to have a great kind of strength that she
could stand her feet there.

Alas,
a danger that was more hazardous than the storm tried to creep in her. It moved
slowly and unknowingly, attacking when she was not on alert so she could not
blame it but herself. It worked successfully because she began to think that
she invited it to her to destroy her. No, no storm to night. It meant she could
rest soundly. She was not sure though since it kept on creeping that she cried.
She cried to sleep that she was thinking that everything would be okay when the
sun rose and the cheerful blue sky welcomed her, for another blessed day on
earth.

INDEPENDENCE

By Diane

Reach for the heavens

And catch hold of a star

Be true to yourself

And know who you are

Go your own way

Don’t follow the crowd

Hold your head high

Stand tall and be proud

Fight for your right

And believe in your dreams

Because nothing in life is exactly as
it seems

Some people will tell you

What is false and what is true

But only you know what is best for
you

So decide for yourself

Then stand by your choice

Disregard the opinions that other
will voice

Some people are smart and have wise
things to say

But it’s your own heart and mind

That shows your way

Above is the poem I grew up
with. The poem that gives me inspiration that the only one I have to count on,
besides God, is me. The poem that teaches me that I am responsible to myself.
The poem that shows me that loving me is the first priority.

Watashi wa
zehi nihon ni benkyoushitai da. Soshite, nihon o benkyou shite iru. Atsukute,
benkyou shite iru. Samukute, benkyou shite iru. Genki ja nakutemo, benkyou
shite iru. Rainen, watashi wa zehi nihon ni benkyoushitai da. Ja, ganbarimasu.

by Ryan Shupe & The Rubberband

When you cry be sure to dry your eyes, cause better days are sure to come.And when you smile be sure to smile wide, and don't let them know that they have one.And when you walk, walk with pride, and don't show the hurt inside, because the pain sill soon be gone. 

Chorus:And when you dream, dream big, as big as the ocean blue. Cause when you dream it might come true. When you dream, dream big.

And when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud, cause it will carry all your cares away. And when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself, and it will help you feel okay. And when you pray, pray for strength to help to carry on when the troubles come your way. 

Chorus

When you cry be sure to dry your eyes, cause better days are sure to come.And when you smile be sure to smile wide, and don't let them know that they have one.And when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud, �cause it will carry all your cares away. And when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself, and it will help you feel okay. And when you pray, pray for strength to help to carry on when the troubles come your way. 

Chorus 2x

George
Bernard Shaw:

He
who has never hoped can never despair.

Back
to the year of 2002, I was a rookie in “dream big” way of
thinking. I was not aware of the broken heart that this thinking may
cause. I was not aware of the competition to get my dream come true.
It could be predicted or guessed easily that I didn’t go for the
next war. But, I didn’t stop there. I kept my dream alive during my
study in uni. For the whole 4 years, I was so patient to wait the
time for me to finally make this dream come true. Exactly 4 years
after the first turn-down, I made my come back, thinking better
prepared. I was better this time. I could hit the room where there
were five people in front of me, wishing to know about me better than
in the paper. I received no follow up call or notice. I was again
brokenhearted. There was mixture feeling. Thinking that I was tired,
I wanted to stop right there. Thinking there’s other shots for me,
I kept moving on. I have no idea whether it is my denial to the
things that I fail to get or it’s my motivation to move on and
believe in the “dream big” scenario, but I once again made my
come back to 2007 year round. This time I was worse than the previous
year. I had to endure another broken heart. I don’t know how I can
forget all the hurting feeling and I kept move on. I chose different
destination this time, thinking that maybe I would have better luck
there. Yesterday, that letter came to me. The letter did not come to
make me happy, but to give more wound to my already wounded heart. I
don’t have my luck there. But, I don’t know it’s me or my
denial to accept the failures, I definitely will make my come back.

Preemo ^_^